NEW FOUNDATIONS: My need for hip replacement
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I started my quest by reading Louise Hay’s book, Heal Your Body: The mental causes for physical illness and the metaphysical way to overcome them. I specially looked at her symbolic interpretations regarding problems in the hip, joints and arthritis. The hip and joint problems were simply. They represented movement forward and flexibility. When these areas are not operating properly, they can cause fear of moving ahead, creating rigidity, stiffness, and pain in the body. Arthritis was easy too. It represented feeling unloved, criticized, and resented – in other words, childhood and what I’ve come to realize has been a theme for me in many lifetimes – lack of parenting and lack of foundational support in life, translating to lack of success personally, financially, and romantically. But let me just say, these were not new concepts to me. I’ve been working as a clairvoyant for 15 years. In that time, I have extensively worked on healing my mommy issues. As a matter of fact, I no longer identify as a victim to my upbringing; quite the contrary. I’ve learned the purpose for my early circumstances and am happy to have had them as they taught me a great deal. I have also changed all my beliefs about myself and do not feel I’m creating my life from an old sense of being unworthy and non-deserving. I wasn’t sure why I was experiencing the need for hip replacement. Hadn’t I already worked these issues to the bone? Then again, maybe that was the point.
The truth is hip dysplasia is my biggest problem; the socket where the head of my femur rests and rotates is shallow and causing excessive wear on the bone. However, Hay didn’t have an explanation for this issue so I sought my own higher interpretation. Placing my attention in my hip sockets, I asked them what they represented. The sense I received back was that the hips and their sockets act as a cradle for your foundational self. It’s a critical area for how you carry yourself in the world. I found that interesting because, most of my life I had worked toward shifting how I was taught to carry myself; as a girl who didn’t deserve anything good in life. The way I move through my life today is as an empowered woman who can both give and receive great love and support. But then it hit me. Sometimes a pattern can become so deeply ingrained in us that it literally calcifies, or hardens, into our bones. Although I was well past my childhood limitations, the pattern was apparently deeply ingrained in my bones and could not be eliminated with just a thought; remember, this pattern had been with me for lifetimes; it wasn’t really my mother’s fault – I brought it into this lifetime and it seems surgery was the only thing that was going to make it go away.
Healing is a layered process and it’s easy to think you are missing your mark or not being perfect in that process. However, I share this story with you so you understand that it can be difficult to see just how deeply something has influence over you. Don’t be hard on yourself when something you are trying to heal persists. You are not doing something wrong, you are simply unraveling an exceptionally long thread. Accept that life is a journey and there may be times when you need to readdress or cycle back to an issue you thought you were past. There is always more to learn.
Excited for a new foundation,